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You feel happy and afraid at the same time.

Happy that you can be around and witness the wonders of it all.

But afraid you won’t ever be able to grasp it. You won’t be able to hold it close to your heart. You won’t ever feel the warmth of it, the softness of it.

 

What if it’s not as wonderful as they say it is?

Or maybe that is just me being cynical about the whole idea of it.

 

You know why I like words.

Because I can fill an entire page with them, and they won’t leave. They will last forever. Love doesn’t last forever. It breaks and bends when we least expect it.

 

If I don’t have love

At least I have these words forever.

 

 

-   daisyk.

Sunday 11.22.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

A Big Texas Thank You

Texas Baby

Texas Baby

To the MAIP team and everyone at 4A’s THANK YOU. Thank you for curating virtual sessions with industry icons. Thank you for tackling the 100+ emails you get every day. Thank you for handling all 363 of us on one Zoom call. The hard work does not go unnoticed. To my MAIP class, Thank you. Thank you for making me laugh during every Zoom call. Thank you for allowing me to be myself. Thank you for advocating for me. Thank you for the memes and daily motivation. This class is something else. We are a bunch of hard-working goofballs that turned a sour situation into one no one has ever seen. I hope to get coffee with all of you someday. Hopefully, there is a shop that can hold all of us. Until then.

 

 

Saturday 08.01.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

The New Normal

 I never thought I would be having coffee every Thursday morning on a 5-hour Zoom call. Nobody did for that matter. MAIP VEP 2020 is the most interesting program and experience I have ever been apart of. There are about 363 humans that became trailblazers. We created relationships that were built online. We had happy hours through our cameras. We created campaigns from our living rooms. WE did that. We stopped at nothing. I am so happy to have been put to this challenge. It has been so positive and nurturing to myself and my passion. I have met some of the greatest people in the Advertising industry and found mentors that will stand in my corner. This the new normal and with it I’ll keep moving forward every day.

 

Saturday 08.01.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

Fort Worth

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A piece written from the perspective of a girl who spent her first afternoon in Fort Worth.

 Main St. What’s so main about it anyways? Is it because it’s where everyone meets? Is it because it leads to all of the other streets? I’ve spent one hour here, and I like it. I feel myself being immersed in places like Main St. I heard the coffee is really good here too. Maybe that’s why it’s off Main St. I also heard the buildings are nice and tall, but not to look up for too long or you’ll start to get dizzy. I heard there is a lot of history here too. Something about cowboys and their cows, yuck. They don’t really smell the best. I also heard about this place called the Stockyards. I heard it’s a lot of fun, but I think there are cows there too. I heard the Stockyards have good beer. Sometimes I feel like girls aren’t allowed to like beer like it’s a boy thing or something. I don’t care though; I like the beer. I heard people like to dance here. Honky tonk dancing. When I was younger you couldn’t get me to stop dancing. I still like to dance but mostly alone when people aren’t watching. I think I like this place a lot. Especially when the sun is out.

 

Friday 07.31.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

2020

With a blink of an eye 2019 has come and go. The decade comes to a close and it’s a little more sentimental than normal. The past 10 years were those that encapsulated adolescence and innocence. My friends and I were just growing up and we didn’t even realize it. We were making mistakes and learning from them.

Learning; that’s what matters here. Singling out the past year, here is what I learned. Enjoy.

Nineteen things I learned in Twenty Nineteen

1.     There aren’t enough hours in the day.

2.     There is nothing a good film can’t fix.

3.     Some days are weird and hard to get through, but they get the same 24 hours as the better days.

4.     In a year you can go through many death cycles but remember this is you shedding your old skin.

5.     Curiosity killed the fucking cat.

6.     Social media can and will rot your brain.

7.     You are a damn people pleaser. Shed those ways.

8.     Music is always the answer.

9.     There is a story in everything and everyone you meet; all you have to do is listen and ask the right questions. Invest yourself.

10.  Even you feel like you can’t, make every decision with love.

11.  If you want it and I mean really want it, prove it.

12.  You are a reflection of you and no one else.

13.  There are very good people in this world. When you find them cherish them and do not let them go.

14.  Never stop nurturing your mind, body, and soul.

15.  Fall in love with more things and fewer people.

16.  Quit selling yourself short. Go after exactly what you want.

17.  The more you write the better you feel.

18.  You know you have a temper, do not let it control you or your actions.

19.  If you’re going to cry, make it fucking fast.

Next, here are a few things my peeps learned.

“Showing up is sometimes the hardest part.” - A.S.

I love this one. Once we are there, things don’t seem so bad after all.

“I learned that I am actually good at more things than I believe when I don’t limit myself creatively.” - B.W.

YES. We are all a little bit creative. To hell with hiding it!

“The shittiest commercials are for boost mobile and cricket wireless.” - W.W.

Honestly, who do they think they’re fooling!

“Health is more valuable than anything.” - E.C.H.

Exactly! Let’s take better care of our bodies!

“Forgiveness is important so that we can let go of restrictive energy.” - J.J.

Absolutely! Forgiving is hard but once we learn to forgive someone else, we can also forgive ourselves.

“The finish line is for the ego, and the journey is for the soul.” - A.O.

AMEN!!

“Speaking less and listening more makes for the best conversations, just think a little about your questions.” -S.F.

Agreed. Some of the best conversations I’ve had this past year were those where I finally shut my mouth and started to listen.

“You don’t owe anyone an explanation, and you can’t demand one from others.” -S.C.

Damn right. I learned this the hard way.

I will never get tired of reading about what others have taken away from this adventurous life. It is actually a privilege.

And after all these lessons,

What a year.

What a decade.

2020 here we go.

Cheers!

-d.k.xx

Friday 07.31.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

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Sometimes I wonder what part of me you took when you left. I know that I just feel empty in my own hands. But surely you don’t. What part are you left with, what part of me exactly.

 Maybe it was the way I sounded when I yawned in the morning when I woke next to you.

Maybe it was the way my breath broke melodically when you placed your hand around the nape of my neck.

Maybe it was the way my hand traced over your back soft enough to cut through smoke.

Maybe it was my smile and my teeth that you always said were so big and so white.

Maybe it was the look I gave you when you talked about a new project you had; you know the look that never ended.

 I was never yours, but I always felt like a tiny part of me belonged to you.

Every time a new person leaves, I think they take a tiny part of us what we must refill over and over. How long until we can feel whole again.

 -d.k.xx

Friday 07.31.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

Soul//Mind

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soul; the spiritual or immaterial part of a human being or animal, regarded as immortal; the essence or embodiment of a specified quality.

mind; the element of a person that enables them to be aware of the world and their experiences, to think, and to feel; the faculty of consciousness and thought.

The soul is you. The soul is me. The soul is energy. The soul is power.

My soul. My soul is firey like the sun. My soul aches until I am still. My soul is untouched.

My soul is mine. My soul is my greatest possession. My soul is quiet. My soul is tough.

My soul is gracious.

The mind is different. The mind is me. The mind is you. The mind consumes.

My mind is not me. My mind is loud. My mind envious. My mind is messy.  My mind is not whole. My mind controls. My mind is ill.

My mind is not me. My mind is silenced. My mind comes 2nd. My mind wanders. My mind is to think only.

~LOVE YOUR SOUL~

~YOU ARE NOT YOUR MIND~

as always,

daisy.xx

Friday 07.31.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

Pieces

We spend most of our time reinventing ourselves. Trying to be better than the last. Trying to find or make different pieces. Most don’t end up fitting our puzzle anyways. We look for ourselves in people, places, and things, trying to find what resonates. For so long I’ve been gathering pieces and trying to make them fit. I don’t want to look anymore; I want to just be. I may be this unfinished puzzle, but to someone else I just might look whole.

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Friday 07.31.20
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My Greatest Lesson (this far)

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We meet people all the time. We go through life and create many friendships and relationships both romantic and platonic. I have had a lot of really special friendships that have faded away and some that have stuck with me this far. I've had past relationships that have ended not so great (to say the least), and others that ended civilly. Now acknowledging the fact that I am the most sensitive and nostalgic person ever when either of these types of relationships ended, I immediately found myself becoming very sad and very emotional simply because, well it was over. I had a very hard time dealing with that word, "over". I couldn't get it through my head that "over" meant finished, kaput, you name it. Until now. What I am getting at is that we meet people and we grow with them, we share experiences, stories and all of the in-betweens. We spend some of our most precious years with some of them. I've learned that one person(s) could really help shape you by pushing you to go that extra mile or provide the best support you need to reach the goals you never thought you could. Needless to say, they make you who you are today, and as sad as it may be this does not guarantee they will be by your side forever, as your partner, friend, or anything. It is one of life's most bittersweet gifts to us, and now I can actually say that its OK things are "over." I just try to remember that I would not have ended up where I am without each and every one of those experiences, both good and terribly bad.

So, today I decided to write down a new mantra that I am starting to apply to my life, and that is "thank you." Those two words have so much more meaning to my life now and I couldn't be happier about it. So, thank you

daisy. xx

Friday 07.31.20
Posted by daisy klarissa
 

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